Lets get this down...

I feel so fat.. i've had some shitty days but now I'm back on track... gohd im tred i need to get to sleep

I went to see the rocket summer last night... adn didnt get back till 1 this morning


and then had to get up at 6 for school


for basically

i binged all day becasue of the low energy and low sleep...... can people abuse me to make me want to loose weight? lol

today  wasn't too bad actually

i had like egg white for breakfast

and chicke stock for lunch

felt a bit sick after though

and a bit dead coz thats like only 40kcals (i counted it as extra) for a whole day adn i was like really sleepy adn then i got home adn mum made pancakes :S.. but i worked out if i had it plain there was 125 in one pancake... so that wasnt too bad today :)



go me :)

I was going to start with the 500kcal a day thing.. but now i think im just going to do 2468


i've got chicken stock ready for tommorow dinner and i'll probably just have egg white for breakfast.. hmmm need to find out how many calories theri are in it 

So then.. lets start this one....

I've binged allllllllll weekend but I'm not even hungry I've just binged for no reason.
I wanna be accepted on proanna because i know that if i got accepted on there i'd be more willing to keep to my diet and not eat all this shit. PLUS I'm going to my friends house in two weeks and shes like a size 6... I NEED to loose much more weight in 2 weeks so that I can  be slimmer because otherwise i feel really big next to her and get really depressed.....


But i LOVE food....



*no i dont no i dont no i dont*

Got to convince myself otherwise....

and everyone at school everyday eats lots of shit which makes me want to eat because when I'm startving and their all munching away on their carbs and shit I soo want to be them with their slim bodies and they can get away with eating shit...
bitches :)


so then....


I will get slim

 so this week on shoping i ordered

	Quorn Simply Fillets Chicken Style 312g	Each	£1.70	£1.70
1	Oxo 6 Chicken Stock Cubes 35g	Each	£0.44	£0.44
1	Tesco Healthy Eating Sauce For Pasta 500g	Each	£0.52	£0.52
2	Tesco Finest Tom & Mushroom Sauce 340g	Each	£0.79	£1.58
2	Tesco Whole wheat conchiglie 500g	Each	£0.70	£1.40
1	Tesco Healthy Eating Skimmed Milk 2.272ltr/4 Pints	Each	£1.34	£1.34
1	Tesco Free Range Eggs Large Box Of 12	Each	£2.78	£2.78
1	Tesco Healthy Living Carrot / Coriander Soup 600g	Each	£0.94	£0.94
2	Tesco Fresh Noodles 410g	Each	£1.00	£2.00
2	Bean sprouts 335g	Each	£0.43	£0.86
1	Sweet Chili Stir Fry Sauce 125g	Each	£0.71	£0.71
2	Chinese Stir Fry Vegetable 360g	Each	£1.00	£2.00
2	Family Pack Stir Fry 610g	Each	£1.50	£3.00
2	T Special Offer Chicken Mini Fillets 345g	Each	£3.00	£6.00

hhmmm..... i won't eat it all.. but the stock will be something because it is so low in calories.... i will make mum eat the rest



im going to bed, but first im going to do some sit ups

day 1  500
day 2  500
day 3  300
day 4  400
day 5  100
day 6  200
day 7  300
day 8  400
day 9  500
day 10  fast
day 11  150
day 12  200
day 13  400
day 14  350
day 15  250
day 16  200
day 17  fast
day 18  200
day 19  100
day 20  fast
day 21  300
day 22  250
day 23  200
day 24  150
day 25  100
day 26   50
day 27  100
day 28  200
day 29  200
day 30  300
day 31  800
day 32  fast
day 33  250
day 34  350
day 35  450
day 36  fast
day 37  500
day 38  450
day 39  400
day 40  350
day 41  300
day 42  250
day 43  200
day 44  200
day 45  250
day 46  200
day 47  300
day 48  200
day 49  150
day 50  fast

one hour exercise every day burning at least  400 kcals up to 1000

everything bad comes at once?


I'm officially the fattest person around


HE dosn't like me


my mums being a twat


and i'm generally not happy